Living is an amazing gift. The lives we have will give us firsthand knowledge of the complete goodness of our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. Sometimes the lessons we learn are difficult and even, gut wrenching. However they always make up the difference…always.
Last week I prayed for a greater understanding of what the past year has given us. I had thought that the answers I received that day were more than enough to comfort my soul and give me the strength to move forward. Today I was given more understanding.
One of my most deepest desires is to be self-sufficient…always. I have a strong thread of independence running through the tapestry that is me. I have always believed that this is something that I need as I become who I am truly meant to be. I was wrong…
There has not been a time in my life like the one we have been traveling through. The highs and lows have been so extreme that, at times, I get whiplash trying to keep up with them. We have been so blessed during the lows to have a support system that lifts us through prayer, listening ears, gifts and love. I am sure we would not have made it this far and learned as much as we have learned without them.
One of the most difficult things I have had to do is ask for help…on every level of life. Like most people, I would rather be the helper and give what I can to someone in need. Standing on the other side of this has been very humbling. Keeping my head up has been a feat in and of itself. Yet, through it all, I was never made to feel like I was less because I needed help. I did that all on my own.
As I have pondered all of the help we have received, I again had a prayer of understanding in my heart. I don’t think the things we go through that completely stretch our souls are surface teachers. I believe they have such deep lessons that we will spend a lifetime learning from them.
The answer came in a quiet flash. I had to reach out quickly to grab it to truly see it for what it was. Grace….
Grace is defined in the Bible Dictionary as, “…divine means of help or strength, given through the bounteous mercy and love of Jesus Christ. The grace is an enabling power that allows men and women to lay hold on eternal life and exaltation after they have expended their own best efforts. Divine grace is needed by every soul in consequence of the Fall of Adam and also because of man’s weaknesses and shortcomings.”
The question that came with this answer was, “How will I ever be able to accept the grace of Jesus Christ if I cannot accept the ‘grace’ of those around me that are very willing to save me?”
This life is one of learning…learning to become. I know I will fall short of the qualifications of eternal life and exaltation. I know I will need the Savior to make up the difference. I now know that in order for me to be able to do that when I meet Him, I need to learn how to do it now.
We have been saved time and time again by those who truly love us. As we have accepted their help, we have developed a greater love for them that we didn’t have before.
It is the same with our Savior. As we are saved time and time again by Him, we draw closer to Him and find that deepening love that will enable us to recognize Him.