It is all about the journey….

Archive for February, 2015

His Path

His PathTwo years ago our little family moved into a wonderful home, incredible neighborhood and beautiful area. It has been a little utopia for us on so many levels. It was a drastic change for us, as now our children were safe to play outside at will, be out after dark and feel a freedom they had not been familiar with. Here we have found peace and healing at many levels.

At the same time, this has been a place of sacred testing and growth. We have passed through some of the most exquisite trials, pulling at the depths of our souls. We have seen scarcity and great blessings all at the same time. We have been shown what it is like to live by faith day in and day out. We have seen the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father manifested through family, friends and strangers time and time again.

A few months ago the nomadic spirit inside of me woke up. I truthfully didn’t like it, because I love so many things about where we are. Yet, there it was….desiring change.

I am pretty sure that Heavenly Father knew that I would need a lot of time to adjust to a change of this nature, because I felt content where we are. I am pretty sure that He needed me to prepare myself at that time, so that I would be in a peaceful place to help my family go through the same process. I am pretty sure He understands my heart so deeply that He does these things for me.

The final decision was made only a few weeks ago, and once again it was done out of pure faith in how we feel. We have taken steps, most of which we have no idea why, only that we felt like it was what needed to be done at that time. There are many steps yet to be taken, however we feel like the end is hurtling towards us in the darkness.

It is times like this that I have to rely on the promises that have been made specifically to me and my family. I have to remember the quiet whisperings I have been given that assure me all is well and He is in control. I have to remember that when I feel all of the opposition in my heart we must be on the right path. I have to remember that He is gently teaching me along the way how to trust Him and be His friend. I have to stay strong, yet allow my heart to feel everything that will come its way.

I am pretty sure it would all feel a lot better if we knew our ‘where’, yet that is part of the path that has not been opened up to us yet. I have a new found respect for those in the scriptures who were driven from their homes to find a new place for them, for the pioneers who traveled thousands of miles in the wilderness not knowing where they would be until their prophet saw it with his eyes.

I hope I can be strong like they were.

Loaves and Fishes

This morning I was taught by the Spirit. We are in the process of making a major change in our lives. As with any change of this magnitude, there are pros and cons, things that make sense and that don’t.

As I have weighed the pros and cons and looked at everything that makes sense and wondered at what does not, I turned to my Heavenly Father in prayer. I asked for Him to guide my mind so that I can make the right decision, even if it is one that does not make sense to my mortal mind.

Loaves and FishesHe is always so kind and patient in His teachings.

My mind kept wandering down different paths and their perceived outcomes. I began to notice that as it would wander down certain paths…the ones that seemed to make the most logical sense, my mind would darken and I would feel a certain level of anxiety in my heart. I realized that it was His gentle way of showing me what He needs us to do right now.

I have worried about having enough, being able to have the means to live and do what we need to do. It is something that has weighed on my heart for over 3 years. Again, this worry came to the front of my heart.

I was reminded of a story in Matthew chapter 14. It is a time when Jesus is working through the death of John the Baptist, His beloved cousin and friend. The multitudes find Him and want what we all want…time and healing. His compassion is overwhelming to my heart that still struggles with giving when I am hurting. He teaches, heals and loves each one of these people.

At the end of the day, His disciples tell Him to send them away so that they can find food. They scoff a bit when He asks them to feed the multitude. As they share with Him that they have but little, He asks them to bring their bread and fishes to Him.

This is where the story touched my soul today….

Knowing full well that He had the power to multiply these loaves and fishes to feed everyone, He turns to His Father…our Father and thanks Him for the bounty they have.

After this prayer the multitude was fed.

The miracle is what was left over….more than the initial offering made to Heavenly Father.

The gratitude Jesus had for what little they had allowed the miracle to come to pass.

In the quiet moments I have enjoyed today, I have found so much comfort and strength to move forward down the path that does not necessarily make sense to the world. I am so thankful for the little whisperings of the Spirit that teach me to be like my Savior and trust in our Father to provide.

Forward

ForwardLately I have been in awe of the timelessness the words given to us from Heavenly Father are. I have found a great deal of strength, comfort, knowledge and peace as I have studied His words. It stands to me as one of the greatest miracles we have before us.

One of the stories from the Bible that has always intrigued me is the Exodus of the children of Israel. I marvel at the strength and faith that Moses had in Jehovah as he led thousands of people from captivity. The path was not laid out for him. It was required of him time and time again to take a few ‘steps’ and ask for the way to be shown.

I can only imagine the desire to understand what the will of God was when they arrived on the beaches of the Red Sea. I am sure there was a moment of confusion and the question of, “How am I supposed to do this?” Yet, there they were….on the beach, no time to build boats adequate enough to carry everyone across, complaining abounding, and their enemies were upon them.

Moses turned to the Lord in prayer.

13. And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will shew to you to day: for the Egyptians whom ye have seen to day, ye shall see them again no more for ever.

14. The Lord shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.

15. And the Lord said unto Moses, Wherefore criest thou unto me? speak unto the children of Israel, that they go forward:

16. But lift thou up thy rod, and stretch out thine hand over the sea, and divide it: and the children of Israel shall go on dry ground through the midst of the sea. (Exodus 14:13-16)

I have found there are times in my life when I am on the beach of a proverbial Red Sea. The way forward feels impossible and there is not an option to turn back. I have found myself wondering the same thing, “How am I supposed to do this?” It is in these moments that I do my best to understand what the will of God is for me.

I find comfort in Moses’ words….the Lord shall fight for you.

It takes a great deal of prayer and trust in these situations. I have learned through this journey that we are one that He goes before us and prepares the way. I have learned that those things that I think are impossible to overcome are only limitations that I place upon His power. If it is His will, then the path will be made clear before me.

The Red Sea did not part as soon as they reached the beach. It took a moment of faith, seeking and action for the path to be shown to them. It was also a path that no one had anticipated, but Him. I have to wonder, would the children of Israel have followed Moses if they knew their where their path would lead them?

Would I have followed if I would have known where my path was going? if I would have known there would be moments that I cannot see the way forward?

I am so thankful to know that Heavenly Father is in control. I am so thankful to know that He has confidence in me to take me down a path that will require faith and trust. I am so thankful to know that He has always been there (even when He stepped aside for a while). I am so thankful to know that the Atonement of Jesus Christ has not only given me forgiveness when I have fallen, but it has enabled me through its power to do things I never thought I could.

Like Moses, I will do my best to step to the edge of the Red Sea, trust and lift up my rod….

Forward.

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