This morning as I thought about the future, it felt tremendously big. I began to look at where I am and the huge gap that separates me from where I have felt I need to be. For a brief moment, the gap started to overtake me.
With these four words came a rush of the many things in my life right now that are so uncertain. The things that will define me one way or another, depending on how I respond.
Again, “You have to believe.”
A healing, strengthening power washed over my heart and spirit.
As I took a moment to look back in my life I saw the many times I gave myself an ‘exit’ by holding back part of my belief, wondering if the assured promises would indeed come. It is difficult to let go of these self-limiting thoughts and ideas, because of the perceived safety net they provide.
How is it that we doubt the One who will never, nor cannot lie to us? How is it we think we know more or have a better way? How is it that we shrink in the face of the very opposition designed to make us stronger?
Where I feel I need to be, and those things that I need to accomplish is far greater than where and who I am today. As much as I have desired to move towards this place, I find that I have not been able to as quickly as I would like. It becomes discouraging, and easy to allow the doubts to creep in. I need to remember it is a process.
I have to believe that He knows me better than I know myself.
I have to believe that He has a plan, that is more wonderful than I can imagine.
I have to believe that He sees a strength in me that I have never tapped into.
I have to believe that everything I have felt I need to accomplish, He has designed.
I have to believe that I will be defined by His love, not my imperfections.
I have to believe that I am His.