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Lifting Me

Tonight I was given one of the sweetest gifts…it came from one of the best I have ever known. What could be thought of as ‘no big deal’ was a miracle in my heart.

Let me back up….

This week has been one of the heaviest I have carried since our whirlwind move a few months ago. Returning to school has been a leap of faith for all of us, because of the sacrifices it requires. I truly felt like I was just a being living in our home…not a mom, wife, daughter, friend, or anything really…just a being tied to a computer and a notebook. I seriously lived minute to minute, assignment to assignment, test to test.

Through it all our son had a major basketball tournament, we were able to help out my brother by taking his daughter (win-win situation for our daughter) and all of the daily things that life entails.

Today was the last test I needed to take for the week…I wanted so badly to do really well, however it seemed like everything was running together and smashing up in my brain. There was nothing left for me to do but take the test. I held my breath as the score was being generated, and when I saw it my heart fell. My score was not a reflection of the knowledge I have worked so hard to acquire….

As I walked out of the testing center my heart turned to prayer and my eyes filled with tears. It seemed as though the delicate balance I had worked so hard to maintain all week was toppled and everything crashed down. It was a long ride home….

MyLoveWalking into our front room my sweet husband took one look at me and knew…knew that life had crashed. He is such a gift to me…a balm to my heart when it is broken. Truly in a situation like this, there are rarely the right words to speak, yet he found them.

He has the innate ability to calm my heart, lift my eyes and bring peace to my soul when there seems no peace to be found.

With still more to do, I felt the tug of my babies needing a mom. I listened as they told me how much they have missed me and how hard it is sometimes now that I am in school. I cried with my daughter as she asked if we could have some ‘just us’ time. I listened to my son as he expressed his fatigue and need for help in overcoming the ‘silly thoughts’ that plague him when he is tired. It was difficulty magic…if you can say that.

I wanted so badly to help my husband with one of the last things to get done for the day, yet he asked me to finish my last thing…prepare a lesson for tomorrow. I felt so empty. How could I even begin to find what I needed to share with these girls I have been called to serve? How could I even share with them, when I had nothing left?

As I prayed for help and relief, my eyes were directed to the kitchen….there stood my husband, quietly doing the dishes….so I wouldn’t have to. It touched my heart so deeply that he would do this for me, that he would lift my burden. He is a gift to my heart, my life and my soul. He is my rock. I am so grateful to be his.

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Who We Truly Are

Who We Truly AreTonight I was reminded of a deep and powerful truth and I felt like I needed to share….like somebody needed to hear it too.

In the Pearl of Great Price, God reveals himself to Moses. As He is speaking with Moses there are many times when God refers to Moses as, “my son.” He could have called Moses anything, and yet God chose to show Moses who he truly is…a son of God.

It would be easy to pass this story off and say that He has never spoken to me face-to-face, so what would it mean for me? Yet, the deep meaning here is the most powerful knowledge that we could ever have…

We are His.

We are His daughters.

We are His sons.

We are His.

As such, we have divinity within us. We have the capabilities to face things that feel bigger than us and overcome. We have the gifts to do more than we ever thought we had power to do. We have the knowledge that there is someone greater than everything who loves us deeply.

There have been many times that I have forgotten this reality. As I have allowed this knowledge to fade from my heart, I have seen firsthand the sadness, fear, anxiety, loneliness and heartache that takes it place. I know I cannot live without Him there.

So many of life’s problems come when we forget who we truly are. Yet, so many of life’s problems are overcome when we remember and trust.

Because we are His, we have within us the strength to overcome, the power to move forward, the gift to change and the ability to see. There is nothing He would have us do that we cannot accomplish. We are truly powerful.

It is truly humbling to my heart to think that I have a portion of who He is within me, especially when I see my weaknesses and know that I have so far to go. The beauty is…He sees this all too and offers His strength freely. Freely.

How thankful I am for the beautiful reminder that penetrated my heart.

I am His.

I am a daughter of God.

My Little Artist

heartttTonight, as the sun was setting, I watched my little girl as she played outside. The winter is slowly leaving our area and the increasing warmth ignites her desires to be outside. Our backyard is a wonderland full of opportunities for her imagination to run at full speed.

She and her little friends have created a ‘cafe’ in the backyard. They have many tools for baking up any kind of mud entree one would ever desire. To the outsider it would look like a mess, to them it is heaven. It amazes me what they come up with. (more…)

Sweetest Treasure

file0001918983115Last night I found the sweetest treasure waiting for me on my pillow. It was a small folded paper, about 1 inch by 1 inch. ‘To Mom’ was written in tiny little letters. I opened up this little note to find a big heart with the message, “I love you Mom!”

It is difficult to find the words to describe the warmth that enveloped my heart as I held a piece of her heart in my hands. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I marveled at her pure love for me. Every time she gives something away, she gives so much of her little soul with it. I tucked my sweet treasure into my scriptures, where it would be safe and I would see it often. (more…)

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