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Toiling

The beginning of Luke Chapter 5, it tells of a night that Peter and his partners had fishing. They had spent the entire night toiling, working and possibly praying for their nets to fill…to no avail. When the morning came, their nets were empty. I imagine they were disheartened, wondering what they would tell their families. Toiling

On this particular morning Jesus Christ came to the shore where they were cleaning their nets. I am sure they were doing what needed to be done so that they could be done and move on. He asked Peter to take Him out from the shore, so he could teach those that were following Him that day. The sermon was not one that was recorded in Luke…the most important part of the story came after the Savior finished teaching the masses. He turned to this ‘one’ and told him to go out further so he could let down his nets one more time.

And Simon (Peter) answering said unto him, Master, we have toiled all the night, and have taken nothing: nevertheless at thy word I will let down the net. (vs 5)

The results were nothing short of a miracle. The nets were so full that the net broke and Peter had to call for his partners to come and help them. When they came, both ships were full, so full they began to sink.

After a night of seemingly empty toiling, Peter’s faith in the Master filled his ships.

This story struck my heart as I read it.

Toiling.

There are times in life when it feels like an endless night of empty toiling, when all of our efforts seem to produce nothing but an empty net. Prayers that are offered feel like they have gone unheard. Feelings we may have of where to search produce little, if nothing at all. We search for the sliver of dawn that will allow us to bring the ship to shore, so that we can at least find some sort of footing, ritual in cleaning our nets.

Yet, as in the case of Peter, this long night prepares us for when the Master comes.

If our nights are not so empty, watchful and difficult, our hearts will not be seeking Him. If we have given up and left our boats on the shore, nets unclean, we will not see Him come. If we have allowed our hearts to give up, we will not feel of His love.

The nights are long, but not meaningless.

There are miracles that can only come to pass with Him. There are miracles that we can only see when we have softened our hearts. There are miracles that need to follow the toiling. There are miracles that will save us.

DawnI pray that my toiling will be acceptable to Him….that I will be able to see Him. I miss Him sometimes and long for the time when He comes to the shore and turns His eyes and heart to me. I know He seeks after the ‘one’…I need to remember that I am a ‘one’ that He would seek after.

For now I need to continue taking care of my boat and nets…keeping them strong and clean. Toiling.

He will come…..I know He will.

The Dawn

amazing-sunriseI have heard many times in my life that it is always the darkest before the dawn. When you are in that darkest place, that quote can either bring comfort or irritation. I have experienced both as we have traveled through a bit of darkness in our lives. Today it brought comfort to me.

I have been seeking understanding for the current journey we are on for quite some time. I have prayed for this understanding to lighten my load and bring light to a spirit that has felt dark and alone. The times when I have felt irritation with the darkness is when I have felt a hardening of my heart, the uncertainty of the future and the desire for the dawn to come earlier than it is supposed to.

Over the past few months there have been brief moments of understanding that have come into my heart. I know that they are not my thoughts, but whisperings of someone who knows far more than I do. They have come as tiny rays of light filling my heart and allowing me to see what was necessary to give me hope and direction.

With each dawn, the light comes almost imperceptively and gradually strengthens as it approaches. It is natural. It is quiet. It is life-giving. It is beautiful, especially after a particularly dark night.

Darkness brings with it a myriad of experiences. It is near impossible to negotiate in darkness without tripping, getting smacked at various locations, running into things and feeling hopeless. There is a special, exquisite feeling of loneliness that comes when we cannot see where we are going or feel what is ahead of us. It can feel as though we are screaming into a void, with nothing coming back.

Yet, the darkest of nights give us the opportunity to see the brightest dawns.

I love being in the mountains to watch the sun come up. I see the first evidences of light in the sky. As the sun begins to emerge over the top of the mountain, the horizon becomes clear. The shadows gradually creep back, retreating before the beauty of the light can overtake them. And then, the world has opened up.

Our dark night has begun to yield. We are seeing the faintest evidences of the coming dawn. Just as it is with the mountain, we have been able to see things on the horizon first. The shadows continue to do their best to keep hold, but they will retreat as the light grows stronger. I have prayed for this moment time and time again, knowing that the dawn will come at the time Heavenly Father knows it will be the best for us. I have tried over and over to speed this process up, however His timing is always perfect.

I am forever grateful for this night we have passed through. I have never reached out so deeply and strongly to my Savior. I have never relied so much on Heavenly Father’s love and mercy. I have never seen so many daily blessings that they give us, which we can take for granted. I have never felt so close to my incredible family.

To be grateful for the dawn, we must be grateful for the night.

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