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Lifting Me

Tonight I was given one of the sweetest gifts…it came from one of the best I have ever known. What could be thought of as ‘no big deal’ was a miracle in my heart.

Let me back up….

This week has been one of the heaviest I have carried since our whirlwind move a few months ago. Returning to school has been a leap of faith for all of us, because of the sacrifices it requires. I truly felt like I was just a being living in our home…not a mom, wife, daughter, friend, or anything really…just a being tied to a computer and a notebook. I seriously lived minute to minute, assignment to assignment, test to test.

Through it all our son had a major basketball tournament, we were able to help out my brother by taking his daughter (win-win situation for our daughter) and all of the daily things that life entails.

Today was the last test I needed to take for the week…I wanted so badly to do really well, however it seemed like everything was running together and smashing up in my brain. There was nothing left for me to do but take the test. I held my breath as the score was being generated, and when I saw it my heart fell. My score was not a reflection of the knowledge I have worked so hard to acquire….

As I walked out of the testing center my heart turned to prayer and my eyes filled with tears. It seemed as though the delicate balance I had worked so hard to maintain all week was toppled and everything crashed down. It was a long ride home….

MyLoveWalking into our front room my sweet husband took one look at me and knew…knew that life had crashed. He is such a gift to me…a balm to my heart when it is broken. Truly in a situation like this, there are rarely the right words to speak, yet he found them.

He has the innate ability to calm my heart, lift my eyes and bring peace to my soul when there seems no peace to be found.

With still more to do, I felt the tug of my babies needing a mom. I listened as they told me how much they have missed me and how hard it is sometimes now that I am in school. I cried with my daughter as she asked if we could have some ‘just us’ time. I listened to my son as he expressed his fatigue and need for help in overcoming the ‘silly thoughts’ that plague him when he is tired. It was difficulty magic…if you can say that.

I wanted so badly to help my husband with one of the last things to get done for the day, yet he asked me to finish my last thing…prepare a lesson for tomorrow. I felt so empty. How could I even begin to find what I needed to share with these girls I have been called to serve? How could I even share with them, when I had nothing left?

As I prayed for help and relief, my eyes were directed to the kitchen….there stood my husband, quietly doing the dishes….so I wouldn’t have to. It touched my heart so deeply that he would do this for me, that he would lift my burden. He is a gift to my heart, my life and my soul. He is my rock. I am so grateful to be his.

Renewal

DSCN1954Yesterday, in our neck of the woods, was completely perfect. The sun was shining, the air was warm and my mountain beckoned us. My husband and I had an hour before our kids came home from school, so we answered the call.

The mountain is my sanctuary, my adventure and my inspiration. There is always something new waiting to be discovered. As it is spring here, the renewal of the mountain is stunning.

I have found that renewal comes in the most simple of packages. Little buds on the trees speak of shade to come. Flowers opening for the first time whisper that life is beautiful. Water cascading down the mountain sings of hope and life. Little creeping and flying things tell of life to come.

We experienced all of this as we hiked to our favorite spot in the mountain. There are several paths that lead us to the same destination…the waterfall. We selected the one that travels directly by the stream, because of the way the water speaks to our hearts.DSCN1926

It is a spot of heaven on earth for us. The stories the water tells as it crashes off of the rocks into a little pond below are tales of inspiration. The rocks below provide us with a spot to become one with these stories and give us a place to receive.

There is a quiet power that lives in nature. This power is incredible. It is ever changing and evolving to meet the needs of those that seek it. The waterfall has given me the power of sanctuary, protection from harm, joy, inspiration, connection, hope, adventure, laughter and renewal. It has seen a few tears and heard many moments of laughter.

It is a gift that I am truly thankful to have. While I may not know what is to come (however much I crave even a glimpse), I do know that renewal comes. The waterfall shows me the power that Heavenly Father has in our lives, as we seek Him. Just like there are many paths to the waterfall, there are many paths to Him. As I have taken my heart to the waterfall, I have taken it to Him.

LadybugsThe renewal I see on the mountain brings me hope that there is a renewal coming in our life. I simply need to be where He is and see the small evidences of His hand.

 

 

 

 

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Hold On To The Promises

Today just feels different. Some mornings come and they bring hope with them. file0002072402222

Nothing happened to change anything, just the dawn.

Promises is a song by Sanctus Real that has been playing on my brain MP3 player for weeks. It has been in the background trying to teach me something. Today I took the time to listen. (more…)

Breaking Limitations

FlowerThis is something that has been in the front of my mind for a very long time. Thankfully I learn more about it each day. It is a sad reality when I find that the limitations I feel in my life are ones that I have put there on my own.

I read this quote by Darren Hardy this morning and it reached into my heart… “To play small is to sin against your nature. You were designed for greatness.” (more…)

The First Step….It IS Scary!

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Today is the day I start on this amazing journey. The first step is always the hardest and scariest to make. There are so many times we need to take a first step. It is easy to step away from what is scary. It is difficult to pick up your foot, aim it in the direction of the unknown and set it down.

Today I picked up my foot and set it down on this path. Yep, it is scary. I have tried to run away from this path over and over again. Every stinking time I turned around it was right there beckoning me to come and see. Today Is the day I face it.

I decided to walk down this path today, because I want something more. I have struggled (that is putting it lightly) what my purpose is. What is the passion that drives me? What do I have to offer? Okay, you get the idea. I have started down so many ‘safe’ paths that have led me to dead ends, brief moments of joy, and pure nothingness. The only path that was left was this one.

So here you have it. This is the journey down that path, the one that scares the crap out of me. Along this journey I am going to find my joy, purpose, passion and all of the other things that make life amazing. Hang on tight…we are going for a ride!

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